Monday, August 3, 2009

Michael Jackson: The FIght For A Legacy

On the one hand, the family and fans of the late Michael Jackson are fighting to keep his image as the "King Of Pop" and the world's greatest entertainer alive. Many tributes and plans have been set in motion to ensure that Michael is remembered for his talent.

MTV ran a special this past weekend praising Michael and his music and radio stations everywhere are still playing Jackson songs all day and night. There is a huge birthday celebration planned for what would have been Michael's 51st birthday in Las Vegas. Many have spoken about Michael and their experiences with him on television and in newspapers and magazines. They speak with a reverence in their voices as if they had been touched by greatness simply by being in his presence. Many keep repeating, "He was so normal, so kind, so wonderful". Why is it necessary to constantly speak about his normalcy? Why the need to tell the world that Michael Jackson was a great humanitarian and lover of children? Could it be because the facts are starting to contradict the impressions that he left on those people who consider themselves so fortunate to simply have been in his presence?

Every day there are constant bits and pieces of information that expose Michael for the sad, miserable and fragile drug addict that he was. Every day a little bit more information leaks out about the vast amount of drugs that Michael was using and how he procured those drugs. There are tales of doctor shopping, paying vast sums of money to any doctor who would give Michael the drugs that he craved and as the investigation goes on, it is apparent that at the very least, some medical professionals will most certainly lose their licenses to practice. Some may even go to prison.

What should we believe and how should the real Michael Jackson be remembered? For the older fans Michael's talent is set in stone and no amount of truth will shake their faith in the proverbial Peter Pan of music. With these die hard fans his legacy will be one of reverence and awe. What about the younger generation who have only come to know Michael Jackson since his death? Will they only remember him for what they are currently seeing and hearing about his musical legacy or will they have to face the facts that Michael Jackson was a junkie who is just as responsible for his untimely death as the doctors who supplied him with the drugs he craved.

I believe that Michael Jackson is a very poor role model for the young people who are just discovering him. He had a lot of talent in his time on the planet but he was also a sick mess who walked around like one of the zombies portrayed in his "Thriller" video. How much of a father was Michael Jackson since he spent long hours either stoned out of his mind or in a coma-like sleep induced by a dangerous substance that he had no business using (Deprivan).

I would not want my grandchildren to emulate Michael Jackson nor would I want them to blindly worship him solely on the fact that he had a lot of talent. I would want them to know that along with that talent came a man who was twisted in many ways and not a good example to follow in their young lives. I would want them to know the whole truth about Michael Jackson.

Not everything about Michael was child-like and out of some fairy tale saga. He was NOT Peter Pan but more like the Pied Piper....children followed him to Neverland and some were never the same afterwards.

We will probably never know the whole truth about Michael Jackson's life, but I am sure that we will eventually know the truth about his death. It would be wise for all of us to pay attention and let his newest fans in on the secrets that are slowly spilling out about how Michael Jackson lived his life and who he really was.

Was he the hero of our fairy tales or the ogre who hides under the bed? I suspect that he was both.

Tuesday, July 28, 2009

The Bachelorette Finale

I keep asking myself why I continue to watch this show. It only ended happily ever after once and no self-respecting romantic can tolerate those odds. Yet, there I was after yet another weird season watching as two virtual strangers fall madly in love, get engaged and sail happily into the sunset.

Jillian Harris had a penchant for wrapping herself around her men...literally. She seemed like more of a hot number than the previous Bachelorette candidates and she wasn't as physically pretty as the others. Yet, Jillian had a lot of energy and personality and I guess American men are taken with the Canadian accent enough to fall madly in love (lust?) with her.

Three men proposed to her and two of them were rejected. After what appeared to be a lot of "scripting" for a so-called reality show and several delays, Jill chose Ed as her true love and tonight on "After The Final Rose" we will see if they are still together.

Based on previous shows we have several choices to look forward too.

(1.) They could have split during the three months apart since the filming of the show
2.) Jill could have reconsidered and picked one of the rejected men
3.) Ed may have changed his mind after seeing her make-out and profess love for his rivals on the very same day that she picked him over the others
4.) Someone (Ed) could have a girlfriend stashed back home (there are rumors on the Internet to this effect).

The list could go on and on but my bet is that they will stay "together" for a few months and we will than read that they have split up having mutually decided that they are better as friends.

As I began this blog...why do I continue to watch this farce of a show? Maybe because I want it to be real and I want it to have the happy ending that is promised. Maybe it's because I like to watch train wrecks and my curiosity gets the best of me? I have no idea why I watch. At least when I watch shows like "I Love New York", I know that they are fake as hell and that most of the participants are actors or others trying to pursue a career in the entertainment field. At least I do not allow myself to be fooled by over-zealous producers and hosts who look right into the camera lens and lie to the audience about the sincerity of the show.

There was no hair pulling, spitting, copious amounts of vulgarity or stripper poles on The Bachelorette but that didn't make it any more real than what I watch on Vh1 which is known for hokey, low rent shows with characters straight out of Jerry Springer.

Wouldn't it be a surprise if Jillian Harris and Ed (can't spell or pronounce his last name), really stayed together and got married? I'd love to see another Trista and Ryan storyline....but that's the operative word here...STORYLINE and I should be used to it by now.

Well, off to the next dose of fake reality for me and yes, I'll be back to watch the next Bachelor too. It's addicting.

Monday, July 27, 2009

Michael Jackson: What really killed him...And Who?

Tonight a "source" both close to the Jackson and family and the current investigation into his death claims that Dr. Conrad Murray did indeed administer the potentially deadly drug Diprivan within a 24 hour period prior to Michael Jackson's death.

Whether this "source" is accurate or not, I am wondering if they will be able to detect the drug in Michael's blood, liver and brain so many hours after it was given to him. Diprivan dissipates within a few hours after it is given.

It was reported that Michael's stomach contents were devoid of any food and only contained pills at the time of his autopsy. Will this unravel the mystery of why Michael Jackson's heart stopped beating?

What were those pills and when did Michael ingest them? The answer to that question could make a world of difference to Dr. Murray and his future. If Dr. Murray hung an IV solution of Diprivan and monitored Michael while he was unconscious than it is possible that Michael woke up when the IV solution ran out and that he was alive at the time. If Michael woke up and ingested or shot up some other powerful drug or drugs it could have caused his death from an accidental overdose of several different substances who's properties interacted with one another causing his death.

I wonder if we will ever know the full story of what actually happened to Michael and if anyone will ever know who was responsible for his demise. Of course if the "source" is accurate Dr. Murry will be held responsible for giving Michael the Diprivan whether it killed him or not since he was not trained to do so and the setting was not conducive to giving an anesthetic.

Was it solely the work of an untrained doctor who had no business administering Diprivan or, Michael himself feeding his addiction or a combination of both?

I personally am anxious to hear the toxicology report and other related tests because the speculation is fueling a media cycle that is out of control and sensationalistic beyond what the media even imagined. The media lives and breathes for stories such as this and the sudden death Michael has allowed them to hit the mother-lode of speculative tabloid-like reporting. More talking heads are earning a buck than I have ever seen and more cable anchors and hosts are making a name for themselves on the sad moment when Michael Jackson finally ingested or shot up his last fix.

It's almost like this story and all of it's sorted aspects are some kind of huge surprise to the media....like they had no idea that Michael Jackson could be the new Marilyn Monroe, Elvis or Heath Ledger. The biggest shock is that they are shocked.

Michael was playing Russian roulette with his body for a long time and his dying was not the big story here. If there had been no Conrad Murray and no Dirprivan there would only be a sad legacy of a talented man who died from an "accidental over-dose". It would have died out in due time and the only legacy would have been Michael's body of work. It would have succeeded beyond even his wildest dreams and taken care of his family for years to come.

What we have instead is an example of waste, personal degradation and addiction; an all too familiar tale of the famous becoming a victim of their fame and going down in shame rather than in a fond remembrance of what once was and what could have been again.

Michael's children will only be temporally shielded from the excesses of their beloved father and even though they will never stop loving him they will one day have to understand that he chose drugs over them. He chose to get high rather than get healthy to raise them and guide them into adulthood. I pity them when the day comes that they find out that they were thrown away for a temporary high.

No matter how the Jackson's paint their father and how much wonderful music he left behind, the simple truth is that Michael Jackson loved his drugs more than he loved anyone else and in the end, they became his life.

Those drugs became his reason for living and without them he could not function. Sadly for all concerned, the drugs let him down as they always do and Michael like so many before him thought that he could beat the odds....win the battle on his own terms.

Sadly, this is never the case and now three little children are forced to live in a world that they knew nothing of and were thrust into by the actions and needs of their father who promised to love them and protect them.

I do not believe that they will find the love and affection that they once knew with their late father. As dysfunctional as their life was, the Jackson family is not the united group that it likes to portray to the outside world. I can only hope that his beloved children can overcome what they will undoubtedly have to face in the days and years to come.

Friday, July 24, 2009

Michael Jackson: Possible Answers?

On another blog I have been writing that I believed that the Jackson family as well as the Los Angeles Coroner's office have known the results of the toxicology tests on Michael Jackson for at least a week. At the very least, they knew what the preliminary results were.

Now, there is an article by Michael's former plastic surgeon that he has been given permission by Katherine Jackson to release the findings of the private autopsy that the family ordered.

I am including a link to that article:

http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/32124792/ns/entertainment-music/

I have also been stating that I believed that Michael Jackson died of a drug over-dose and that at least one or more drugs would be present.

Here is the rub in the possible manslaughter charges that may be brought toward Doctor Conrad Murray and others; if Propofol (Diprivan) and Demerol were found in Michael's system and those drugs killed him than wouldn't it have been possible for the following scenario to take place?

Let's assume that a doctor administered the anesthetic Diprivan to Michael and that he was put to sleep for a fairly prolonged period of time. Perhaps when the drug had run it's course and Michael woke up he then injected himself with Demerol (as I believe he did on a regular basis). What if the combination of the Diprivan left in Michael Jackson's system combined with the Demerol was enough to cause cardiac arrest? When Dr. Murray found Michael breathing in a shallow manner and close to death, it is possible that he had no idea why this was occurring.

There may also be other drugs that Michael Jaackson was taking and coupled with the Diprivan and Demerol were enough to kill him.

Regardless of what drugs were present in MJ's system and how many of those drugs he self-administered, the doctor who gave him the Diprivan committed a criminal act. You cannot use an anesthetic used only in operating rooms and ICU departments in a hospital or clinic that is equipped to perform surgery, in someone's home. You must be trained in the use of such a drug and you must know the protocol and have taken all of the necessary precautions when giving the drug. In other words, there would have to have been a licensed, trained anesthesiologist in the proper setting of a hospital in order for the administration of the drug to be considered legal.

If Dr. Murray or someone else who did not meet the above criteria gave Michael Jackson that drug than they are subject to charges of Manslaughter or a similar charge where that person had awareness that the drug they were giving could possibly cause death to the patient.

I believe that there will be more than one party responsible for Michael Jackson's death. The many doctors who continually helped to feed his ongoing addiction, the doctor who administered the Diprivan and Michael Jackson himself who also self-medicated and sought and received the drugs that both fed his addiction and ultimately killed him.

Michael is dead so that leaves the other possible perpetrators; the doctors and pharmacists. Heads will roll.

Thursday, July 23, 2009

Michael Jackson: Lies and Liars

I listened to an impassioned plea from Jermaine Jackson yesterday. He was begging people to "Leave Michael alone". Really? If the media and all of us "leave Michael alone" then will Jermaine have any shot at all at a career come back? Will Jermaine and his brothers sell any concert tickets if no one is talking about his brother, Michael?

Of course, with a "death Investigation" in progress by the Los Angeles Police and Coroner's Office there is absolutely no chance that the story of Michael Jackson's death will be stopping anytime soon. Does Jermaine really believe that people will stop talking about Michael? Does he really want them too?

Is there nothing that family won't do to continue seeking attention and publicity for themselves? I doubt it. Michael will always be their golden ticket to the money train that they hope to jump on and ride for all it's worth.

If Michael had lived they would have ridden his coattails to London and attempted to cash in on the success of his tour. His father would be pushing his record label and the boys would be doing their very best to get up on that stage to perform with Michael.

Nevermind that no one wants to see the Jackson four without Michael Jackson. No one ever did. Even though they started out as a group they certainly were over-shadowed by their brother's talent.

Miko Brando and Jermaine Jackson steadfastly deny that Michael was abusing drugs in any way yet, they claim to have been the closest to him for the longest time. Jermaine claims over and over again that he is "Michael's voice and backbone", but he never saw any drug abuse or odd behavior? Miko was always there, putting out the flames when Michael got burned, spending countless hours both at Neverland and on tour with Michael yet he never witnessed any odd behavior or drug abuse?

The lies and the liars continue to push their way onto any talk show or sound bite that they can find to claim their unique closeness to Michael Jackson and they continue to lie about what they knew and saw. They have zero credibility in my opinion and I for one, am tired of listening to them spout their nonsense.

Jermaine proclaimed that he would have changed places with Michael in the end....he wished that he had died instead of Michael. He claimed that it was he who wanted Michael buried at Neverland, a place that Michael left for good after his molestation trial stating that it was no longer a place he wished to live in...it had become just a house that had been tainted by the police raids, etc. Jermaine Jackson insisted that Neverland was Michael's "dream" and that he created it. He even went so far as to state that he "felt Michael's spirit" on the grounds of Neverland.

It has become obvious to me that Jermaine didn't know his brother at all and that he has no intention of honoring his brother's wishes. He wants what will make money for the family ( mainly his share of Katherine's 40% of the estate's value). If that means dishonoring his brother's wishes than so be it.

Even though Jermaine praised Michael's Will and it's contents I am sure that he will soon change his tune as his mother is trying to have parts of the Will changed and herself substituted as Administrator of the estate. Jermaine and his brothers and their father have so much more to gain if Katherine is in control rather than professionals who know how to manage an estate and distribute the wealth according to what Michael wanted.

The Jackson's don't care what Michael wanted....they want money. They can't acquire it by exhibiting any talent so they will try to get it from the brother that they used for so many years.

The lies continue and the liars are frantically looking for anyone who will listen to them.

All aboard the gravy train, long may it ride.

Wednesday, July 22, 2009

Michael Jackson: Fated to Die

If Joe Jackson had been permanently confined to a mental institution 45 years ago would Michael Jackson be alive today? Probably....

After watching Joe's recent interview with Larry King I concluded that the man is a raging nutcase who was, is and always has been a greedy SOB hellbent on exploiting anyone in his path.

I was no fan of MJ's although I admired his talent. Mostly, I listened to his music and watched his performances through the eyes of my children who were teens when MJ was at the height of his popularity.

Watching MJ's family members and associates attempting to grab the spotlight and cash in on his name and fame since his death has brought me to the conclusion that he was surrounded by blood suckers.

The doctors who provided him with drugs and illegal substances (such as Deprivan), and the rest of the enablers around MJ are only partly responsible for Michael's early death at the age of 50. Michael himself was also responsible for his sad fate. He began his long journey to oblivion many years ago when he suffered horrendous pain as a result of getting burned during the now infamous Pepsi commercial; but, there were many opportunities for Michael to seek treatment for his addiction to pain meds and other dangerous substances. His emotional pain far out-weighed his physical pain and he was incapable of giving up his habit. That pain began long ago and continued to the day he died. For that, I hold his parents responsible.

He had every reason to live and three children to take care of yet he continued to punish his body and mind with many drugs that could have and probably did kill him. In my opinion, Michael Jackson had a death wish.

Michael claimed to have been abused both physically and mentally by his father and although he claimed that his mother was the only person he could really trust and count on, she did nothing to stop Joe from harming Michael. It is apparent that Katherine Jackson is still under Joe's thumb even though they claim to live separate lives.

It has been reported that Joe is planning a series of concerts with the four remaining members of the Jackson Five. They will use new material written by Michael but never released. Somehow, Michael will appear in some strange form to sing and dance along with his brothers.

Just how will Joe get into the so-called "Vault" that contains this unreleased material? He certainly won't get his greedy hands on it if the Will that Michael wrote and signed in 2002 stands as it was intended and the current Executors remain in charge of his family trust. The answer is for Katherine to "Ask the Court for Guidance" on how to contest and remove those Executors so that she can control the estate and all it entails. That's one way for Joe to get to the unused material.

The children that Michael left behind are in the precarious position of being cared for by an old, weak woman who bends to the will of a vicious and greedy man and her equally greedy sons who see dollar signs while dancing around the unburied body of Michael. The Court must appoint a Guardian Ad Litem in order to protect the interests of those children or they will be totally exploited.

What are the current options for those children? A biological mother who is more interested in money than them, and grandparents who are unwilling to give up on the fame and money that Michael brought into their lives. They might as well be tossed into the street to fend for themselves. Can you imagine Joe's dream of turning them into The Jackson Three sending them into a downward spiral where they end up exactly like their father did.

Surely, no matter where Michael's body is, he is spinning in his coffin as the father he despised and feared attempts to take control of the children he loved and tried so hard to shield. Didn't Michael realize how weak his mother was and how she still bows to the wishes of Joe Jackson while she pretends to be making all decisions concerning the children on her own?

Watching Joe Jackson abuse her sons and doing nothing to stop it, begging Michael to rejoin his brothers on their Victory Tour for the sake of the family and the money that they could all make was the final nail in the coffin of Michael Jackson. The Pepsi commercial where he suffered those horrendous burns were all part of the deal that Katherine brokered with Michael by guilting him into coming back on board and securing that his brothers and father would make the money that they could no longer command based on their own talents. They were mediocre at best; the Pips without Gladys Knight. It was Michael who was the genius and only Michael could secure their future.

By the time that Michael broke away from this pack of wolves for good it was too late. He was emotionally and physically damaged beyond repair and it lead to June 25th and the day he stopped breathing.

That was the day that Michael was finally free from pain.